|Posted on February 2, 2012 at 12:40 AM|
Let's face it, quitting is easy. There are so many times I just want to say, "screw it," and just lay down and play videogames or whatever. I hardly ever do, though. I push through it. I may complain, but it's a way I relieve my stress. Here are some of my hardships, and I hope you can share yours.
Currently my schedule is hell. I have no time for myself. On top of which I only work weekends during school, so I don't make too much money. My current job does birthday parties, camps, and gymnastics. If it isn't a holiday or summer, camps don't take place, and I never learned gymnastics, and birthday parties are only on weekends. Needless to say, I'm very limited. Regardless, I suffer through it and push on, because I know there is something better waiting for me.
I have been waiting to get a new computer, a Mac, since senior year of high school. When I didn't get one because it was too expensive and "not what I need for a business college," I decided to save up. Whenever I got close, something would happen like my car would need a new transmission, and I would lose all I saved quickly and I would have to wait forever to gain that money back again. Yet I keep saving and I am closer than ever.
I want to be a graphic designer/cartoonist and make animations and comics. My parents wanted me to go get a degree in business, something I found boring and absolutely hated. I was presented with an option: go to art college and get kicked out of my house with no family or financial support and a job that in no way would help pay for school; or go to a business college and major in some degree of business with full family support and financial backings. For years I fought tooth and nail, trying to show my parents that this isn't for me. About halfway through my college career, I realized this could better me. I could learn how the animation business works, how to protect myself if I come out with a comic or something, and possibly start my own Graphic/Animation/Comic business. So I am pushing on (and as per this journal, am almost finished).
My friend, Christine Chong, over at Mayshing.com is aware that I want to become a better artist and fulfill my dreams. As a result, she has kindly and patiently started giving me homework assignments to better myself and to expand my horizons, and not just limit myself to one art form/style. There are times where the assignments frustrate me to no end, or I can't do it, so I trash each practice and restart, get mad, trash, etc. There are times where I put it off to help myself calm down and then procrastinate because I fear I will just get mad again. Then when I finally resolve to do it and start improving, my time becomes limited and thus a whole new problem faces me. I don't have the time to practice, or what little I have I am too tired to do so. Yet I try to do a little bit at a time, and when I am too worn out and can't draw I study what my assignment is to try and better understand what it is I currently can't do.
My point is in the title: You can't quit. No matter how easy or how much you want to. Pushing through your hardships helps you to grow, and you may find options you never thought of before. It's tough, it's going to hurt, but once you overcome it will look like the easiest thing in the world. You'll wonder why you ever had such problems. The way I see it, life would be boring if you weren't challenged.
What about you guys? What are some problems you're facing? Do you want to quit? What do you see will be the outcome either way?